Thanks to all who liked and/or commented on I Don’t Feel Feelings Properly, part 1. You are excellent and wonderful.
A common theme seems to be only allowing emotions from the outermost level of the circle, presumably the least intense level. It begs the question – why don’t we allow ourselves to access the inner layers? What prevents us? What do we think will happen?
We really can only speak for ourselves, so for me, it’s about vulnerability and control.
There is a direct correlation between the strength of an emotion and my perception of controlling it, aka the stronger the emotion, the less control I feel over it, especially in public settings. Think Incredible Hulk.
My solution was, and is, to simply not allow myself to feel the stronger emotions – I focused more on the negative, but with the negative went the positive. Now I don’t need protect myself from any strong emotions as it seems I’ve blocked everything.
Of course, I say this just weeks after feeling reasonably suicidal, but that’s a different can of worms, agreed?
This all then begs the question: How do we start feeling feelings properly?
- “I Don’t Know”
- Feelings About Feelings
- Do you KNOW how to have feelings?
- Defense Mechanisms VI: Repression (and Resistance)