…so why don’t I feel relieved?
All the blood tests came back fine – absolutely nothing out of range.
But I just kind of feel nothing.
The usual, undefinable emptiness.
A list of thoughts -
- This doesn’t mean I’m not broken.
- It does mean that this is all my fault – I can’t blame genetics.
- How can I change my mindset? I’ve lived the past 10 years waiting for the disease-ridden shoe to drop…not that it still won’t but I can’t use it as an excuse anymore.
- Everything is my fault…
- …and I’m whining about it.