My mom found my blog. Granted, it wasn’t hidden particularly well.
Claudius gave me the heads up.
My gut reaction was to shut down the blog, but I’m reconsidering. Because this is the place where I best organize my thoughts, which makes it helpful when bringing them to the headshrinker. It also helps to simply push ideas into the world that I would otherwise ruminate on. I also appreciate the support from the internet community.
I’m asking Claudius to tell Betsy that I would really, really prefer that she doesn’t read it. With her reading I definitely will feel the need to much less forthcoming. Frankly, if there is anywhere in real-life that I’m forthcoming, it’s here…and I want to make that self-disclosure journey from online to off at my own pace.
Of course, I’m going to paranoid that she’s still reading it…I made the rash decision to block her from the facebook page.
I’m the worst.
Oof. Thoughts appreciated.
Natalya
/ March 9, 2013Oy! I would panic too if someone I knew in my family found my blog. It’s a difficult situation but you have to go with whatever feels right for you.
lala1966
/ March 9, 2013oh God, that is one of my biggest fears! I would be disowned if my parents knew some of my views and feelings lol. I hope that you can be able to continue being forthcoming and hopefully your mother will understand and respect that.
Red
/ March 9, 2013We all need a safe place. Perhaps if you explained it that way she might understand and refrain from reading? Gosh I can only imagine how panicked you must feel.
The Depressed Moose
/ March 9, 2013my mum commented once that she wasnt happy with some of the things i put in my blog – i told her not to read it then
Joyce
/ May 20, 2013Right on!
ThePoliticalVagina
/ March 9, 2013Look at the bright side, if she reads it (and you know she’s reading it) your relationship with her (and others) could become more authentic. Living in fear is why you are anxious, I’m speaking from experience not criticising.
drgeraldstein
/ March 9, 2013You could start another blog.
depression time
/ March 9, 2013don’t go! if you must, start a new one. and make sure to friend all of us so we know it’s you!
Anthony Daconti
/ March 9, 2013If it helps you organize your thoughts and in turn improves your headshrink sessions which ultimately makes you happier…then keep the blog!
That Socially Anxious Atheist Paranoid Gay
/ March 10, 2013Hi, your feelings are completely understandable. I get that worry a lot that people in “the real world” who may know me might recognise me from what i’ve wrote. I often wonder if maybe I should make posts private just in case, would that help you do you think? Maybe those you really don’t want your mum reading making them private? Although it’s great visiting your blog and the honesty in blogging is so important I think to many of us, how you feel is the most important thing. Best wishes
Lunch Sketch
/ March 11, 2013Tough one! I would not be impressed if my mother or others who I would rather not know about those thoughts and feelings found my writings on “Canvas of the Minds”.
She knows about my personal blog, but most of what I put on there is brief and reasonably indirect. Hmmm …